Odd Man Out

I really love the anonymity of my blog it is so relieving, so liberating. I have a good friend whom once told me "A burden shared is a burden halved". Those words ring so true. So hear, my friends, is my burden.

Today I write, to relieve my pain once again. I have a brother, we have never been as close as we should have but I wish that could be different. I would love to be a part of his life but he doesn't necessarily see it that way. I am a good person, I can assure you all. I have no record, no drug abuse, no anything, I don't even consider myself high maintenance. I would just love to understand why it is me that is the odd man out,it hurts. I am only willing to admit this because no one really knows who is writing this blog. I certainly don't share this with my family. I would however love to share these feelings with anyone that is willing to read it, and I would certainly love your comments and suggestions. I don't think I am alone but I won't know for sure if you don't share with me a story of your own experience. Please share. I just want to know that I am not alone. Is there anyone out there with similar family issues?

One More Day

Be grateful for those in your life. Always know nothing is so bad that someone won't/can't help you. I recently had to deal with a suicide and it has been horrific. The aftermath is nothing short of the most difficult thing ever! Everyone has someone that will listen, love & help you get through this. No one is alone, you must believe this. Nothing is EVER so bad, I simply cannot express that enough. I have loved ones that will be dealing with the pain and suffering for many, many years to come, actually for the rest of their lives. It isn't fair. They loved with every beat of their heart and they were loved with every beat of his! Why could he not see this. What was it that made things so unclear to him that he could not see what was right in front of him. I am so sorry for his pain, if only he had reached out. This man leaves behind children that will forever question...why? There is no explanation, there is no blame. There is only emptiness and sorrow. Please savor every person in your life. Let them know they are forever worth your time and patience. Love them all and let them love you. We are all worthy of love and acceptance. One more day will make all the difference!