Bad Day

As I near the big 4-0, I am not really sure how I am feeling. My issue (not that there are many mind you) is what have I accomplished or should I be honest with myself and ask what have I not accomplished? I am currently raising my wonderful kids and they are truly my pride and joy. I guess my question is what have I done for me? I struggle with this and have for many, many years. This is not where I thought I would be at forty, I thought I would have a lot more life under my belt. Where exactly am I? Where are all of you? Please share your stories with me, I am feeling a whole lot of, oh I don't know, self pity heading my way (not to mention a large glass of red wine). Please save me from myself and from a very unpleasant hangover.